While things are calmed down at the moment, I figured I’d take the time to let people know that things are getting better. I’m pretty cut up, and Josh is recuperating from what happened, but we’re both okay. You can stop worrying now (Lisa…)
Self Para || Desperation
Sam wasn’t sure the last time he had felt this alone or helpless. [[MORE]] He knew that he wasn’t alone, technically. Cami was just down the hall, in the living room or her room, and Adrian was probably with her. The man hadn’t left that much, if at all, in the days he had been there. Well, the days he could remember, anyway. He knew that Dean was just a call away if he needed...
Never eating anything my traitor of a sister cooks again.
To Sam: good! I'm glad,makes me feel better
To Lisa: im glad someone feels better
To Lisa: You can stop worrying about me
To Sam: everything better with Josh?
To Lisa: Ah, no. Still no word from him. My sister-in-law doesn't want me to be alone though, so I'm driving down to stay with her.
To Lisa: You can stop worrying about me
A Letter To Josh
A letter that Sam wrote to Josh and will give to him when he’s back I know I should be saying this to your face. I’ll be honest, and say I’m not sure I could get all the words out that I want you to hear. I have some things I think I need to tell you, though, and you deserve to hear them. Just don’t give up on me yet, read this and try to see where I’m coming from. Let me just start by...
It had been a week since Josh walked out, a week since Sam had seen his husband. He normally would be going a little stir crazy, knowing Josh was out there and it had been a while since they spoke. [[MORE]] But this, this was so very different. This wasn’t just Josh going off on a solo hunt or with a friend and leaving Sam to do his own thing. This was Josh leaving because he...
Haven’t slept in a few days, and not thinkin’ I’ll start sleeping any time soon. Not till I get him back, and he won’t do it by himself. He’s not himself right now, which means I gotta help him.
Let It Out || Self Para, May 5th
Sam had tried to hold onto the high from his birthday, something he hadn’t expected to really be doing. He hadn’t wanted to celebrate at all, but had gone out with Josh, Cami, Seath and Adrian, and had actually had fun. Once he had gotten some beer and a few shots in him, he loosened right up, laughing and joking with the rest of them, leaning into Josh and just enjoying the closeness....
I never would have thought that, two years ago, giving a man a kiss simply because he drew this… …would be the best decision I had ever made. Here’s to two years together, and hopefully a lot more. Love you, babe.
yoga-girl: Insisting he gets to talk to Uncle Sam at some point today I’m pretty sure I can arrange that. I have my phone on me, so any time you guys wanna call.
yoga-girl: Never! Ben was home sick from school and I ended up napping half the day away. I’m sorry. Uh-hu, I see how it is, Lis. I understand. How’s the little guy doing? :P
yoga-girl: Sam there’s a cake with your name on it that will be made on your next visit! Happy Birthday! Hopefully you’ve behaved yourself! I was starting to think you forgot all about me and what today was. And of course I’ve behaved, I do nothing but behave.
runwithwolves: collegeboy83: Let me see what Josh had in mind. He wanted to celebrate somehow, not really sure what we’re doing yet. Just let me know Will do, man.
runwithwolves: collegeboy83: I may have snorted at this. You’re welcome, man. And thanks, I appreciate it. Always here to entertain! Hahah. Soo…beer? Let me see what Josh had in mind. He wanted to celebrate somehow, not really sure what we’re doing yet.
the-alpha-cat said: That sounds awesome! You deserve to have a good time. Hey, as long as no one gets hurt, I’ll consider today a success. Thanks, though!
runwithwolves: Happy Birthday to a very good buddy of mine! Thanks for not killing me dude! I may have snorted at this. You’re welcome, man. And thanks, I appreciate it.
the-alpha-cat said: You’re welcome! I hope you’re having a good day! It’s been a pretty quiet day so far, but Josh talked me into celebrating. No idea what we’re doing yet, but I trust him, lol. We’ll see what ends up happening.
the-alpha-cat said: Happy Birthday, Sam! :) Hey, thanks Calli.
Time to celebrate my birthday. Happy 30th to me.
runwithwolves: adrian-bryce: collegeboy83: Come on guys, don’t do this. I’d rather just stay in, maybe have a beer and treat it like a normal night. It’ll just be a few people, dude. Seath and the boy, me and Cami, Clay and Ang, you and Josh, a few of Cami’s girlfriends. See? Simple. More like a get together. I hate you both
runwithwolves: Two against one Sam. We’re dragging your ass out for the night! Come on guys, don’t do this. I’d rather just stay in, maybe have a beer and treat it like a normal night.
runwithwolves: collegeboy83: Not really sure what’s going on lately, but I just keep seeming to screw up. Not looking forward to tomorrow, and seriously, Adrian - no party. Please. notice he never said ‘Seath no party’ Dude, i’ve totally got this! Dude. No.
Not really sure what’s going on lately, but I just keep seeming to screw up. Not looking forward to tomorrow, and seriously, Adrian - no party. Please.
Ready for it to be next weekend. Then we’d be past all this crap hopefully and things could go back to normal.
yoga-girl said: Ben had Lizzie practically chanting your name in her ‘unc ammy!’ way. I can’t remember why Wait, seriously? That’s…. awesome, I didn’t know she said that. Send me a video if he can get her doing it again.
yoga-girl said: mmm, I’ll enjoy having him back And this is where we change the subject. God, please.
yoga-girl said: know what else sucks? Being able to not even have the opportunity because your fiance isn’t around I’m with you on that one. At least when Dean gets back, you’ll be… I can’t finish that statement. You get it.
yoga-girl said: hahah, you poor thing! Damn straight poor me, lol. It sucks, but I told him I’d stop complaining as much cause of other things going on. Besides it’s just another week and a half.
yoga-girl said: …why? I have no idea. He just said that he wouldn’t do that until my birthday. It’s been about a week and a half, and my birthday is a week from Thursday. But he’s not here right now, so it’s easier to resist temptation.
the-alpha-cat said: I’m sorry man, that REALLY sucks ass. I can’t say I know the feeling though. And I’m glad that I don’t. I would never wish it on anyone, lol. It’s fine, though. Just around two weeks to go and then both things will be past. Although I love how I say I don’t want to celebrate my birthday, and I get a text from a friend saying I have to be in California so he...
the-alpha-cat said: Damn. That sucks! Oh you have no idea. I haven’t had to remind myself to keep my hands to myself in a damn long time.
Wow, and he won’t even cuddle with me till then. I’m lucky and can kiss him though. As much as I don’t want to celebrate my birthday, I’m ready for it to get here and be done.
Being told I can’t have sex till my birthday really fucking sucks.
Nothing like texting a friend to make you feel like such a dumbass sometimes.
One of those days where I have to remember everything I’ve worked on in the last two years and not fuck things up even worse.
the-alpha-cat said: -I’m- not fun? Ha! Yeah right, I am so fun! The queen of fun! ;P Nope. None.
yoga-girl said: Sam. There’s money involved. I will pay you. You wouldn’t have to pay me to take the kids for a week. I’m just saying, I’m not sure if it would be possible right now. Deep breaths, Lis.
the-alpha-cat said: Oh lovely. I don’t think I -should- have children. It’s a miracle my cats are still alive! You’re no fun, but fine. Fine, live with your cats. yoga-girl said: want Mary and Ben for a week? I’ll pay you That is not the same thing, but I appreciate the option. I’m not sure Josh would be 100% for that though.
wanderdummied said: Someone has baby fever. I think you and Adrian should form a club Someone just thinks they’re cute…? Shut up. Why, is he pushing for babies already? the-alpha-cat said: Yeah, thanks for that! I haven’t thought about children for a long time! You just brought back all my baby fever! You’re welcome! I can’t have kids, it’s only fair I push...
I’m done now. Sorry for the, ah… spam. Continue on.